so many things had happen for the past few months.. starting with lose contact with 'uncle' till another 'he' got in a relationship..
I'm totally losing contact with this 'uncle', i'm so tired with the way he treated me.. i'm like nobody to him, i'm not even counted as a friend to him.. like usual, he always ended up never replying my bbm and i'm really sick of it.. i'm a human being also, i have feeling too.. so i guess it's time to move on and try to forget this person.. he just came to medan last july for business trip, and we don't really have a conversation at all this time.. we turn out to be like two strangers, i know it's weird but that's the truth.. i think he's trying to stay away from me.. and i have been trying very hard not to look for him all this time and i did it.. maybe we are just not meant to be friends.. =(
somehow i ended up knowing that he get into a relationship.. i kinda hate myself for being so 'kepo', i like to see his twitter, and i found he tweet with this girl quite often, but sounded like they were very close.. i have been guessing for few days, and bbm-ing my besties about this and the worst is i'm trying to convinced myself that maybe they just friends, or maybe best friends.. but someday i found out that they are really together, with all those nicknames, and friends comments.. very heart broken when i saw that and i couldn't really accept it, telling my besties about him and she ask me to really forget him, but it's really hard to forget about someone u love and care so much.. and i ended up emo for 2 or 3 days and i just move on.. you can't do anything about it except wishing that they will be happy together.. i can't say that i really don't love you no more, but i will keep this feeling for my own.. nobody will know about my feeling towards you coz i scared that you will end up treating me as stranger like all the other person i love before.. =(
life is so tough, but we just have to move on.. i know that but talking is easy than taking action.. i wish that my life would be better after all this sadness happen to me.. all i want is a happy life, just as simple as that.. i need to gain my spirit back, coz i will be having my grade 7 ABRSM piano exam this coming wednesday.. hope that everything will went well and the most important thing is focus and don't nervous..
