Sunday, January 15, 2012

people change

it feels so bad when you realize your friends had changed.. they are not the people that you know already.. people change, left everything behind and move on.. why do people change?? can't people just stay the same??
the person that was once your best friend, now become strangers.. totally strangers.. how sad it is.. that's what life really gives you.. but you can't do anything to change it back, cause the people choose to forget everything and move on with a new path.. a path without you in it.. =(
sometimes you feel okay when your friend take you for granted, but still we're human, we have feeling.. we'll feel like we're not appreciated and not important if you keep treating us like that..
this life really gives you a lot of tasks everyday.. i'm so pissed off with my life nowadays.. so many things have happen and they really makes you feel so down and depress sometimes.. you keep asking yourself, "is it my fault?" *sighhhhh.....

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012

the first post on the 1st day of 2012..
haven't been blogging for 4 months, and lots of things happen.. but it's new year now, don't want to look back anymore.. have to look forward to 2012!!
my only wish for this new year is this year will be better than the previous one.. a year with lots of breakthrough, lots of learning, lots of friendship, but less regrets.. and please fill my life with awesome stuff and awesome people.. wish that my wish can come true.. =)
i wanted to change my life a bit.. maybe start with positive thinking?? my friend told me that i always think to the negative side, whatever the thing is.. i realised that, but it's my reflect.. i'm like trained to always think to the negative side.. but i will try to look more to the positive side starting from now.. it's so tiring to have a negative thinking, cause it makes u to think more and more..
and i want to start dieting again.. haha.. dunno whether it will work or not?? but not a total diet, just lesser the portion of my food.. the most important thing is i wish to make more friends!! i'm tired of relying on my only friends in medan.. sometimes people are just so egoist, they will just look for u when they need u, and when they had new friend they intend to forget about their old friend.. i'm tired of always be the one that please everyone and no one even thankful about it.. maybe it's time to go out and look for new friends, but how?????
tired with everything happen in my life, i just wanted a simple life.. is it very hard to achieve?? i will try to change my life from now on, start my day with a BIG SMILE, look more to the brighter side, and to be more outgoing person.. that's my new year resolution!!!! oh GOD please grant me the power to achieve my resolution!!!!